Reconnecting with home while finding peace in the city

Remember when I had that really tiring month? If only past me knew what was coming.

I’m not going to lie, this month has been a struggle, but at the same time, I have felt the support of so many people. Not everyone, but a fair amount. That’s not to say I’ve always listened to those supportive words, or even that I haven’t dismissed them for one reason or another. Imposter syndrome (a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a “fraud” – cheers Wikipedia/Mel for introducing it to me) is real and the craziest thing is being SO aware of it and still making excuses. The brain honestly baffles me.

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It’s hot and I’m getting old

Although June was not quite as busy as previous months, it really tired me out. Which is strange, because come to think of it, I had a whole month of Saturdays off – quite frankly unheard of. Then again, although this sounds like the dream, I’m a fan of my Tuesdays and Wednesdays off, my mid week weekend; the time I get to run all my errands without the hustle and bustle of weekend shoppers. Not in June though. A whole month of a completely different schedule in this gross, sticky heat…well, I think it may have broken me. Not just because of work, but also because I actually ended up making plans on some of these Saturdays instead of hiding away in my flat and you know, relaxing. As I type this I am remembering just how busy in fact June was. No wonder I’m feeling it.

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Celebrations

One minute I haven’t been home since Christmas, the next I’m on my second trip back to Kent just ten days after the first, with yet another visit on the horizon. Everyone has that month with ALL of the birthdays, and for me that month is April.

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Monthly Roundup: Changes

Change, change and more change. March has seen me shift into my meat free diet way more successfully than I thought. I have turned down haribo and was even haunted by a dream in which I was accidentally served bacon. I am so happy to have done this in a way that suited me best; taking my time, learning from friends and most importantly, doing it because I wanted to.

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