Well sod the lot of ya with your January blues, it’s my goddamn birthday month, get it together will ya? Alright, I admit as much as I would love to ignore the downer of a month that January can be, I have to agree, it can indeed be a sucky old month, and you know what? It is okay to feel that way.Continue reading “Figuring it all out in the name of new year clichés”
It has been seven years since I left my home in Kent to start life at university in Southampton. Yet, I have never exactly acknowledged the act of “moving out”. It feels way more like I left one day and never returned. I didn’t move out to try living on my own, or with friends. It was all for uni, which in turn lead me to living with friends, in house shares and at one point living entirely on my own.Continue reading “What I learnt about living on my own”
I am only just starting this post and already it feels very familiar. A return to the blog after a fair bit of silence on this page to talk about changes and admitting defeat in my bid to upload weekly music posts etc etc. Ah, life.
It has been a mad couple of months and not in the exciting ‘Oh I’ve been up to so much!’ way. No, much more along the lines of ‘Oh life is soooo draining right now’. Cor, don’t I sound like a ray of sunshine? In all seriousness, a lot has happened recently and it is only now that I have managed to sit down and reflect on it all.Continue reading “Change, change and more change”
As I sit at home in the evenings, I scroll through seemingly endless feeds of people my age doing anything from getting engaged, married, having children, working their dream job… the list goes on. Often this will happen as I am eating ice cream from the tub in my underwear, while Always Sunny plays in the background. What a comparison, huh?Continue reading “Getting through your twenties”
It has been a while since I came out with a load of words about the last month in general, so my initial thought for this post was, hey, let’s give May the spotlight for a moment. Then I looked back. Other than starting at a new job (which I covered to death in my last post), the last month has been pretty plain sailing. Also, by the time I got round to really writing this post, we had already been through most of June. So it is a sort of two month roundup. Don’t worry though, I’ll keep it short and sweet. Relatively.Continue reading “Let’s catch up”
Well hello there! It has been a while since I last published one of my more personal posts, but by golly do I have an update for you.
Normally I like to do these sort of posts as a little round up of the last month, but this time I have two (and a half) to catch you up on, and to be honest, March seems so far away I can barely even remember what happened. Though these posts started up as pretty simple pieces about what I got up to, more recently they have been centered around certain themes. That being said I have still striven to make sure it is an honest reflection of the month rather than me shoehorning some random idea in. Towards the end of March I had drafted a little piece about needing to care less, and perhaps that will be feature later on, but for now let’s talk about the change that April brought around.Continue reading “Difficult Decisions and New Starts”
Let’s talk about February. It started with my mind a flood of thoughts about work, home, relationships and well, life in general to be honest. I felt a little bit lost, but – you might want to grab a chair for this – just as I thought I was reaching an all time low, my life picked up. I started to feel like progress was being made. Shocking, I know.Continue reading “A New Outlook”
When I rambled on needlessly about wanting to change my monthly posts, I was not exactly sure how (if it all) they would differ from what I had already been doing. The one thing I did know was that I wanted to focus more on progression as well as reflection.Continue reading “Embrace Everything”
Oh how terribly cliche of me, making changes in the new year. I know, I know, how original. Under the usual plan, this post would be looking back on the last month, December; an opportunity for me to close a chapter in my life. This retrospective view on life has been particularly useful in moving on, but the one thing I have been lacking is the plan of where to go next.
Remember when I had that really tiring month? If only past me knew what was coming.
I’m not going to lie, this month has been a struggle, but at the same time, I have felt the support of so many people. Not everyone, but a fair amount. That’s not to say I’ve always listened to those supportive words, or even that I haven’t dismissed them for one reason or another. Imposter syndrome (a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a “fraud” – cheers Wikipedia/Mel for introducing it to me) is real and the craziest thing is being SO aware of it and still making excuses. The brain honestly baffles me.