Remember when I had that really tiring month? If only past me knew what was coming.
I’m not going to lie, this month has been a struggle, but at the same time, I have felt the support of so many people. Not everyone, but a fair amount. That’s not to say I’ve always listened to those supportive words, or even that I haven’t dismissed them for one reason or another. Imposter syndrome (a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a “fraud” – cheers Wikipedia/Mel for introducing it to me) is real and the craziest thing is being SO aware of it and still making excuses. The brain honestly baffles me.
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April has been a busy month. I have moved into my new flat, suffered without internet, borrowed loads of money, visited home briefly. I’ve also generally been lacking motivation, which bloody sucks.
BUT I AM BACK…again. I have a few things to write up, for example, at the beginning of April I took a trip to the Lush Spa in Poole, so keep an eye out for a well overdue piece on my experience – see now I have to do it. I was always going to write about it, but things have got in the way, I have been very distracted, but now I’m back into the groove of writing. I’m even trying to write more for a site called Vulture Hound, they reached out to me a little while back and to say I’ve been a little rubbish at contributing to the site is an understatement, but I’m really starting to miss writing (and well, the opportunities they have to offer) so I’m pretty excited to get back to it. I had planned to write something for Up The Monitors, a site run by a few pals from uni, however the more I worked on that piece in particular the more I wanted to slap that narrative of me in the face. I am hoping to come up with something for them too…at some point, I swear.
That doesn’t mean I’ll be writing here any less, I’ll be aiming to post on here regularly, but will still be working out my routine. I will also continue doing a regular music related post, but instead of isolating it to Familiarise Yourself (which I may extend to the other categories on here), I will be keeping it in line with #musicmondays – at first I wanted to do something different, post about music in my own time. I soon realised I was being dumb and #musicmondays is exactly what I need to be getting involved with.
I just wanted to give an update, mainly because it’ll make me feel better, I mean, I don’t even know if anyone even cares (apart from my Mum, who moaned at me for not writing on here recently – sorry!). Like I said, I’m currently working on some posts and will be looking at new ideas almost all the time – keep an eye out!